The Last Letter To You...

Dear Sayang,

I have so many feelings to express that i have no idea where to begin. I never expected to feel this way again toward you and to be honest i tried not to fall in love with you again!...

How can I tell you what I'm feeling when sometimes, I don't even understand myself? I wish things were perfectly wonderful between us, But we're going to have to work at it to make them that way. I do believe we have so much to build on… our memories and our love most of all. I may not always understand why we have problems, or exactly how to make our relationship stronger, but I care enough to want us to try to find out....

The past few weeks have been hard especially since you're not here with me! but no matter how far you are, my love to you flourish and bloom.... i know, and understand that it is hard for you to accept as i am before since we had argument, that never had to stop. but, trust me my dear, after the last apology, there's no hard feeling towards you... what i think and want is for you to be happy, i want to trust you, and give my full support to whatever you want to be...

We've decided to stay together, I'm glad of that, but what I really want is the chance to do it right, to make it stronger and better than it ever was. I want the chance to prove that I've changed, that I can be trustworthy, honest, open, giving, and understanding. I know we have a lot to do before we earn back that trust, but I'd like the chance to try.

I know we can do it if we try!.. I have always said that you are my soul mate and the one I would always be with forever.

Ever since you are not around, I wish I didn't have to miss you. If only you could be with me always. I know i could never be any happier. But then again, I know that the day will come when i will be able to spend my every waking moment with you. I even miss you when I am sleeping!

I love you, Sayang. With regrets of the past, and hopes for the future, You are my only love, and I thank you for be so kind with my heart... Hopefully, soon I won't have to hate missing you.

Please forgive me for all the hurt that I have caused you.

Love Always,
Safura

3rd Anniversary Celebration

CHANEL for this year present !

Sayang, I like you, cause you like me and you don't like too much... :)

merci beaucoup Darling!

xoxo

3rd Year In Love

love is like a cycle:

when you love, you get hurt.

when you get hurt, you hate.

when you hate, you try to forget.

when you try to forget, you start missing.

and when you start missing....

you'll eventually fall in love again.

Anniversary Ticker

Latter #2 - You're The Best!

Tomorrow's hopes and dreams will never die as long as you believe in yourself and follow your heart. The kindnesses in your heart will guide you to accomplish many things in life and overcome all challenges and all obstacles. Never give up, always have faith in yourself, and you will gain the greatest gift of all, the gift of hope and love you rightly deserve.

Whatever you may do in the future, never let anyone stand in the way of you pursuing your dreams. Know that you will always have family and friends to rely on whenever you need them. No matter what you may decide to do in life, I will be right there to help, support, and love you. I wish you only the best as you continue chasing your dreams.

Lots of Love,

Safura

xo

Latter #1 - My 1st Love Latter to You

Dear Firdaus,

Let me start off by telling you what an amazing man you are and that you fill my life with joy and satisfaction and my heart with love and happiness. Before I met you I had started to lose my faith in love, and I wasn't sure there was a someone out there for me. Now I am positive that there is no one in the world that could complete me like you do or even come close. Love seems more real and true than I ever thought it could and I just want to say thank you, thank you for being persistant in your fight to win my heart because you have won it and me over completely - my heart is yours forever.

I know that we have our fights and I make you think sometimes that you can't take anymore, but in my opinion all the good times make the bad ones worth it. We come out stonger in the end and I just want you to know that I love you and I am willing to stick it out through the good and bad, happy and sad because I choose us! I love you.

Love always,

Safura

X-Japan

For me this is the best X-Japan song that I've ever heard and this is a real tear-jerker for me... first heard some parts of this song from a Korean movie starring Jeon Ji-hyun "Windstruck", which was suggested by my ex-bf. This song really made me cry.. it really touch my heart.. This truly beautiful song was written by Yoshiki for his father who comited suicide. Which gives the song even more meaning. T-T The lines "NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D LEAVE ME ALONE" was the one who really triggers the tear ducts... at first, I could never finish this song when I sing this...

English Translation "Wherever we go is okay," You said Now what may have been Has been stopped by time On that night that was too long I had a dream where you left me Staring at a foreign sky I hugged my lonliness My fallen tears Are piling up on the winds of time At the end I feel your breath DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE LONELINESS... YOUR SILENT WHISPER FILLS A RIVER OF TEARS THROUGH THE NIGHT MEMORY... YOU NEVER LET ME CRY AND YOU, YOU NEVER SAID GOODBYE SOMETIMES OUR TEARS BLINDED THE LOVE WE LOST OUR DREAMS ALONG THE WAY BUT I NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D TRADE YOUR SOUL TO THE FATES NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D LEAVE ME ALONE TIME THROUGH THE RAIN HAS SET ME FREE SANDS OF TIME WILL KEEP YOUR MEMORY LOVE EVERLASTING FADES AWAY ALIVE WITHIN YOUR BEATLESS HEART DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE My fallen tears Are piling up on the winds of time This feeling at the end Makes my blue rose change* DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE My fallen tears are piled on the winds of time again At the end I can feel your breath DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE (talking) If you could have taught me anything You would have found what love is If you could have taught me what was on your mind I could have shown you the way Someday... I will be before you Have you ever thought about that time? I never imagined the pictures of that night For now I will try to live for you And for... I will try to live Try to live the love, the dreams, And finally, the tears. * the blue rose is symbolic of loneliness and emptiness, so here "Makes my blue rose change" means that his lonliness and emptyness changed Original Lyrics doko ni yukeba ii anata to hanarete ima wa sugisatta toki ni toikakete naga sugita yoru ni tabidachi o yume mita ikoku no sora mitsumete kodoku o dakishimeta nagareru namida o toki no kaze ni kasanete owaranai anata no toiki o kanjite DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE LONELINESS YOUR SILENT WHISPER FILLS A RIVER OF TEARS THROUGH THE NIGHT MEMORY YOU NEVER LET ME CRY AND YOU, YOU NEVER SAID GOOD-BYE SOMETIMES OUR TEARS BLINDED THE LOVE WE LOST OUR DREAMS ALONG THE WAY BUT I NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D TRADE YOUR SOUL TO THE FATES NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D LEAVE ME ALONE TIME THROUGH THE RAIN HAS SET ME FREE SANDS OF TIME WILL KEEP YOUR MEMORY LOVE EVERLASTING FADES AWAY ALIVE WITHIN YOUR BEATLESS HEART DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE nagareru namida o toki no kaze ni kasanete owaranai kanashimi o aoi bara ni kaete DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE nagareru namida o toki no kaze ni kasanete owaranai anata no toiki o kanjite DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE (talking) If you could have taught me anything You would have found what love is If you could have taught me what was on your mind I could have shown you the way Someday... I will be before you Have you ever thought about that time? I never imagined the pictures of that night For now I will try to live for you And for... I will try to live Try to live the love, the dreams, And finally, the tears.

Answer me Darling.....

This morning, I asked him;

me: Do you still love me at all?

him: (silent)

me: I don't know if i can sort me love you or love you a little...

him: (silent)

me: Maybe I was in love with you so much, and now i'm feel disappointed.

him: (silent)

Talking to myself.

A part of me wants us to remain nothing more than friends. Now or ever. It is best that way.

The other part of me wants you to fight for me. I want you show up, take me in your arms, and show me how you feel. Never let me go. I am so confused. I am so lost. Life has really thrown me a curve a ball and I just don't know what I want anymore. Will you fight for me? Or will you fade away?

Another day goes by...

Photography taken from my bedroom's window.....

Quiet Emotions

I always wanted more from you than you were willing to give; So now we've gone our separate ways each with different lives to live. The bond will always be there the friendship always intact; But the time for us has come and gone and the pages of time, you can't turn back. I will always be a friend to you and wonder how you are; The smiles and laughter I will remember and our fights have become painless scars. Sometimes on those busy days when you've a thousand things to do; Please let me glide slowly through your mind and spend some time with you. In that quiet moment when you're surprised to find me there; Just remember even with the distance between us I am still someone who cares.

I Think That.....

he loves me?

Something To Remember You by.....

These are something to remember you by, when you're far away from me....

just a little something, that will remain my love to you always in my mind...

I know that love cannot die. Only from words that I could express to you my deepest love, that's sometimes difficult to express...

In my favorite books by the best author, I choose to express my love to you.... it would always be there, forever.

Now you understand, how crazy I am falling in love with you....

On your birthday...

Happy Birthday my love. I'm so glad we're spending it together

On your birthday,

I wish that all your dreams come true.

May your day be filled with joy,

wonderful gifts and goodies, too

On your day, I wish for you

favorite people to embrace, Loving smiles and caring looks,

That earthly gifts cannot replace.

I wish you fine and simple pleasures.

I wish you many years of laughter.

I wish you all of life's best treasures.

I wish you happily ever after!

Happy Birthday...

A Special Birthday Video I Made for You

I hope this year birthday will remains in your sweetest memory forever...

will you ever...?

I don't think you will

ever fully understand

how you've touched my life

and made me who I am.

I don't think you could ever know

just how truly special you are

that even on the darkest nights

you are my brightest star.

I don't think you will ever fully comprehend

how you've made my dreams come true

or how you've opened my heart

to love and the wonders it can do.

You've allowed me to experience

something very hard to find

unconditional love that exists

in my body, soul, and mind.

I don't think you could ever feel

all the love I have to give

and I'm sure you'll never realize

you've been my will to live.

You are an amazing person

and without you I don't know where I'd be.

Having you in my life

completes and fulfills every part of me.

Can't stop wondering.......

End

i guess this is the end. after 2 years ups and downs in relationship, i dont think we suit each other anymore.. what i hope now is, he'll open his mind, to think what had he done, what had he missed. and what ever his decisson, i'll try to accept it. now, i'm trying hard to forget all the mistakes, and trying to forgive him. but to start all over again, not any more. hoping for a new beginning.

in memories...

Closer

If I have enough money to survive,

i do not have to ask you to come over to JB.

I'll be there with you without thinking of enything else..

Just thinking of to be with you...close to you sayang.

If I have a chance,

I would live free, spontaneous, adventure

with you in anywhere you want...

I just wanna be with you sayang....

I've had enough
of this parade
I'm thinking of the words to say
We open up
unfinished parts
Broken up
it's so mellow

And when I see you then i know it will be next to me
And when I need you then I know you will be there with me
I'll never leave you

Just need to get closer, closer
Lean on me now
Lean on me now
Closer, closer
Lean on me now
Lean on me now

Keep waking up (waking up)
without you here (without you here)
another day (another day)a
nother year (another year)

I seek the truth (seek the truth)
We set apart (we set apart)
Thinking ofa second chance (a second chance)

And when I see you then i know it will be next to me
And when I need you I know
you will be there with me
I'll never leave you

Just need to get closer, closer
Lean on me now
Lean on me now

Closer, closer
Lean on me now
Lean on me now
Lean on me now

And when I see you then i know it will be next to me
And when I need you I know you will be there with me
I'll never leave you

Just need to get closer, closer
Lean on me now
Lean on me now

Closer, closer
Lean on me now
Lean on me now
Lean on me now

Closer, closer
Closer, closer