Secret #4 - life...

Life is worth living when you have someone to share the laughters and the tears with.

X-Japan

For me this is the best X-Japan song that I've ever heard and this is a real tear-jerker for me... first heard some parts of this song from a Korean movie starring Jeon Ji-hyun "Windstruck", which was suggested by my ex-bf. This song really made me cry.. it really touch my heart.. This truly beautiful song was written by Yoshiki for his father who comited suicide. Which gives the song even more meaning. T-T The lines "NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D LEAVE ME ALONE" was the one who really triggers the tear ducts... at first, I could never finish this song when I sing this...

English Translation "Wherever we go is okay," You said Now what may have been Has been stopped by time On that night that was too long I had a dream where you left me Staring at a foreign sky I hugged my lonliness My fallen tears Are piling up on the winds of time At the end I feel your breath DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE LONELINESS... YOUR SILENT WHISPER FILLS A RIVER OF TEARS THROUGH THE NIGHT MEMORY... YOU NEVER LET ME CRY AND YOU, YOU NEVER SAID GOODBYE SOMETIMES OUR TEARS BLINDED THE LOVE WE LOST OUR DREAMS ALONG THE WAY BUT I NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D TRADE YOUR SOUL TO THE FATES NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D LEAVE ME ALONE TIME THROUGH THE RAIN HAS SET ME FREE SANDS OF TIME WILL KEEP YOUR MEMORY LOVE EVERLASTING FADES AWAY ALIVE WITHIN YOUR BEATLESS HEART DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE My fallen tears Are piling up on the winds of time This feeling at the end Makes my blue rose change* DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE My fallen tears are piled on the winds of time again At the end I can feel your breath DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE (talking) If you could have taught me anything You would have found what love is If you could have taught me what was on your mind I could have shown you the way Someday... I will be before you Have you ever thought about that time? I never imagined the pictures of that night For now I will try to live for you And for... I will try to live Try to live the love, the dreams, And finally, the tears. * the blue rose is symbolic of loneliness and emptiness, so here "Makes my blue rose change" means that his lonliness and emptyness changed Original Lyrics doko ni yukeba ii anata to hanarete ima wa sugisatta toki ni toikakete naga sugita yoru ni tabidachi o yume mita ikoku no sora mitsumete kodoku o dakishimeta nagareru namida o toki no kaze ni kasanete owaranai anata no toiki o kanjite DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE LONELINESS YOUR SILENT WHISPER FILLS A RIVER OF TEARS THROUGH THE NIGHT MEMORY YOU NEVER LET ME CRY AND YOU, YOU NEVER SAID GOOD-BYE SOMETIMES OUR TEARS BLINDED THE LOVE WE LOST OUR DREAMS ALONG THE WAY BUT I NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D TRADE YOUR SOUL TO THE FATES NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D LEAVE ME ALONE TIME THROUGH THE RAIN HAS SET ME FREE SANDS OF TIME WILL KEEP YOUR MEMORY LOVE EVERLASTING FADES AWAY ALIVE WITHIN YOUR BEATLESS HEART DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE nagareru namida o toki no kaze ni kasanete owaranai kanashimi o aoi bara ni kaete DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE nagareru namida o toki no kaze ni kasanete owaranai anata no toiki o kanjite DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE (talking) If you could have taught me anything You would have found what love is If you could have taught me what was on your mind I could have shown you the way Someday... I will be before you Have you ever thought about that time? I never imagined the pictures of that night For now I will try to live for you And for... I will try to live Try to live the love, the dreams, And finally, the tears.

Night Scrollin' around JB Town

Secret #3 - sleep tight my love.

When you are asleep,

I tell you all the things I'm too afraid to tell you. While you are awake.

Secret #2 - A message I received from a friend

" bila cinta tak lagi untuk ku,

bila hati ku ingat pada mu,

mengapa harus terjadi pada ku...... "

Secret #1 - 15th April 2010

I am not as strong as I make myself out to be.

My Father When to Barcelona......

My Father when to Barcelona and he bought me this sweater

My friend will be going to Barcelona and I'm hoping she'll bought me something too.... ; )

Japanese Dinner

(Japanese dinner set not included wasabi and onion pickle )

I made Japanese Food for dinner last Sunday.

Before this, I always wanted to try to make miso sup and Japanese steam egg, or some call it egg crusted, but it actually called Chawanmushi in Japanese.

So, that day, I decided to make it for dinner, and also consider to make sushi too. It's been quite long I haven't made sushi.... in result, the look not turns very nicely.. as my mom did before...but it's okay... as long as it eatable and delicious : ). I made crab sushi and tuna sushi.....

I made my very first chawanmushi. Gosh, it's so simple, you can't go wrong.....

But, unfortunately the test a lil bit salty..... I guess I need to get more practice to make it taste perfect!

Overall, i'm feel terrific! yeah!

Notebook

I didn't knew my sister is so creative came out with an idea of making her own handy dandy pocket notebook!

One night, I came in to her bedroom to find my punch hole she borrowed, and suddenly I found this MNG catalog that turns to a pink notebook.

I don't know what her real intention is of making this, but i think it's good for recycle... he he

Although I knew, she always out of cash because of spending too much of other things! :D

Seashell Som-Som

I made this traditional Malay dessert!

It actual name is Bubur Som-Som.

I sell it at my mom's restaurant at RM1.50.

Answer me Darling.....

This morning, I asked him;

me: Do you still love me at all?

him: (silent)

me: I don't know if i can sort me love you or love you a little...

him: (silent)

me: Maybe I was in love with you so much, and now i'm feel disappointed.

him: (silent)

Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow, Forever.....

Ever since my sister and I saw this quote, we always believe on it.......

Meaningful greeting

The Good Old Days....

They are secret sharer,

A very great consultant I could say,

They are comfort giver.... and like a diamond to me...

They always care, and always share.

They never stop makes me smile

Loving, caring, sweet and true,

A BEST FRIEND are someone just like them.

Thanks for being my best friend for my lifetime!!

p/s: There're some of them were not in the picture.

Lunch!

Talking to myself.

A part of me wants us to remain nothing more than friends. Now or ever. It is best that way.

The other part of me wants you to fight for me. I want you show up, take me in your arms, and show me how you feel. Never let me go. I am so confused. I am so lost. Life has really thrown me a curve a ball and I just don't know what I want anymore. Will you fight for me? Or will you fade away?

My Way

"Somewhere Over The Rainbow" -Coleen McMahon

A new beginning

Tomorrow, at 5.30pm, will be my 1st violin lesson after 6 years I left it without any acceptable reasons. Now I know, nothing is more important than concentrating in one of your talent that had been given to you although there's other spirit in you to search for a new. I pray, this time, I will not waste the chance that comes. This is a new beginning, this is passion......

Another day goes by...

Photography taken from my bedroom's window.....

David Oistrakh, Debussy - Clair de lune

Symphony of My Life...

Singing has always seemed to me the most perfect means of expression. It is so spontaneous. And after singing, I think the violin. Since I cannot sing, I pain.

My after bath ritual!

I would like to review another great product , it's Johnson&Jonson, which I'm still using until now, It's Johnson's baby powder. It's a well known quality product that we used for very long time and pass through generation to generation. It's been around for many years and I have use it since I was young.

The thing that I love about this product is the fact that it smells so beautiful! It has a lovely fresh smell and is quite difficult to describe but one smell I would recognise anywhere. It brings back memories from childhood....

When I use this talc, I love how it glides over my skin effortlessly and makes it really smooth and soft.

The powder is very fine. It’s excellent for using when you’ve just gotten out of the bath and you rub into your skin so you can have that fresh smell all day. It relaxes you and makes you feel very clean. Especially on my toes and feet. The talc falling in between my toes, it’s just a lovely feeling......

The only thing that annoys me about any talc is that it can be a little bit messy and can end up all over the floor.
As it is loose and a powder, it can come off on your clothes if you change straight after using it.
This is why I mostly use this product at night as it doesnt matter as much if you are just getting into your pajamas!
Johnson's is a popular brand for babies and mothers and im sure when I have kids, I will continue to use this product for them... : )

Pros: Softens and smooths skin, keep skin dry and reduces chaffing, lovely smell, cheap, well known brand

Cons: If you overuse it, it can make your skin quite dry so I wouldn’t recommend using it too much. Also be careful with squeezing the shaker as it can puff in your face and it’s not pleasant to have lungs full of talcum powder. Can be messy & come off on clothes

Handy, Dandy Lip Saver!

Tinted Lip Conditioner SPF 15

Colour Range: Petting Pink

I know some people get caught up in products simply because of the name. I try not to be bias to MAC products just because ..."it's MAC". I accidentally was introduced to this product by a good friend. However, I can't deny the wonderfulness that is the lip conditioner. I have yet to find another balm that is as moisturizing as this baby here. It has a light coconutty smell but it isn't too over-powering. I love the way it feels. So much that I use it after brushing my teeth in the morning and before I go to bed at night. The price is a little steep, but i'm sure it will last you a good 4-6 months. Plus, it has the the SPF for extra sun protection which is always good. Love love love it!

Nice to meet you.....

A Boy, I once was scared, to start again....

Because of lies, and deceitful friends.

There's few of these

In this world, that make it easier to accept,

that some human nature, is just wrong assumptions.

He just a Guy, whom I met. He makes me smile,

Friendship, I Question.....

It should last a while.

A Human

Never seen his smile, let alone his face.

A kind hearted nature, how lucky am I.

I think I'm lucky this time.

He's a sweet and charming guy......

We,

Have few, yet many things in common,

I hope we can learn to share a smile.

Share a hug.

Understand a style.

A future friend.

I believe thats true.

But for now,

It's very nice to meet you!

Control It....

“The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill.. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes.”

Quiet Emotions

I always wanted more from you than you were willing to give; So now we've gone our separate ways each with different lives to live. The bond will always be there the friendship always intact; But the time for us has come and gone and the pages of time, you can't turn back. I will always be a friend to you and wonder how you are; The smiles and laughter I will remember and our fights have become painless scars. Sometimes on those busy days when you've a thousand things to do; Please let me glide slowly through your mind and spend some time with you. In that quiet moment when you're surprised to find me there; Just remember even with the distance between us I am still someone who cares.